It's been almost three months since my last and life obliterating breakup, the days are getting harder and there's no light in sight for the moment, I know you have to feel the emotions and the different stages of grief for a lost love, but really!!!!! after three months, shouldn't I be feeling some bit better.  I've extended the hand of friendship to my ex, which he has accepted, although my last correspondence to him has gone unresponded to, maybe this is why I'm not yet recovering, has my recovery now started from the date of my last correspondence to him, which is just over a month ago.  I didn't go by the NC rule, I'm just not into all that, I go with my heart, maybe that's why I keep making the same mistakes over and over.  Starting this blog as a kind of a diary, hoping that when it comes to delete it, ie. when I've totally recovered, that reading back over it will teach me the lessons that I'm supposed to learn, but somehow never get, or do I get them and just chose to ignore them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!